Hi there everyone
Back for a while...I know it has been long time since last posted here...
but there was nothing to write...
Today's topic is nothing that great neither....

Strange emptyness ¬¬'

I am feeling so awful....and it was all of a sudden....
Turned all empty deep inside...felt like nothing
All in a sudden...I started to wonder what am I living for, why am I living for???What am I willing ...what am I searching for??
My heart suddenly seemed a common machine...that is beating only because was told to beat...to execute your function....I looked out the window..and strangly there was some fog in the city..covering the most distant buildings...It is untypicall...we are at same lvl as sea...it shouldn't happen...it made me even more down....I got souless watching the window....I wonder what is going now....Iw onder what is this sadness consuming me right now....Too much free time??? I guess not...Free time and lonelyness never got me into this stage...Geez...I want to feel as I am fullfilled again...I want to find my reasons of existence...but they seem to be no where...
Am I feeling that because I have met a lot of new ppl recently and want to fullfill their and mine expections??? What is that???
Acctually...
What....Who...am I??? What do I want??? It is all I can really think right now...
Geez...how come nothing can hurt so much???